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    Tuesday, November 23rd, 2004
    6:06 pm
    i have a boyfriend keith.i am 16 had a bday party. friends came it was great. very happy about that. my cousin justin and danielle came too. that was cool. he came and saw us on saturday and they went to the mall and justin bought me a shirt from pacsun. i didnt want to spend his money but he made me.cooool.we told them we were having a party when he dropped us off at home and they wanted to come. i think someone likes kristen. i am not at liberty to discuss this because kristen would be very angry.....anyway. yes.
    Wednesday, September 8th, 2004
    3:58 pm
    ull see
    For the 100 random things I will have to correct that with 103 random things. Hah. Happy now ben
    Anyway school tomorrow. I'm gonna wear my "superman outfit". Its cool. Got a haircut. The woman put in so many layers and some are short. Its good I suppose. Too much 'volume' I think.whatever I don't care...... Maybe a little.
    I have to go to bed in 2 hours. Waking up at 6 is going to SUCK. O wello

    Current Mood: blank
    Sunday, September 5th, 2004
    7:36 pm
    optional
    83. I screwed up number 7. Its supposed to say I lied about 6. I reread all of it and its kinda stupid.
    84. I attended girlscouts for 5 gruesome years. My stepdad didn't want me to quit and wanted me to be a girlscout leader. I pity him.
    85. I did archery for a while
    86. I did horseback riding. I liked it.
    87. Gymnastics I did
    88. I camp every summer with my cousins and my aunt at miles standish at charge pond. Not in taunton
    89. I have pierced ears but don't wear earrings
    90. I used to love animals and nature and all that. Not that I don't already but a lot less
    91. I observe people especially when in the car.
    92. The world is full of lies. Definately
    93. Death too and I think I've gotten used to that. Not as sad about it.
    94. I think there's something wrong with me
    95. My thoughts have to be checked at the door before they come out of my mouth.kb
    96. I like glow in the dark stars
    97. I want a cell phone. Probably will lose it though.
    98.I have a dreamcatcher that hangs from my window not on top of my bed. My dreams are good anyway. What does this mean?
    99. Bottles of beer on the wall
    100. I have poopie brown eyes.
    101. Dalmations. I have that movie
    102. Mine is unique because I have more.yesss

    Current Mood: busy
    Saturday, September 4th, 2004
    11:04 pm
    mmm
    Ok 100 random things list. Inspired by kris who was inspired by ben who was inspired by cait. Ok here it goes.

    1. My name is amanda susan borges
    2.susan is a stupid middle name
    3. I have black hair-dyed
    4. I have a feeling this is going to take a while
    5. I am wearing pants.
    6. I like shiny objects.
    7. I lied about number 7 although its true sometimes.
    8. This is going to take a very long time
    9. I think hate is neither a strong word or the opposite of a strong word. U figure it out.
    10.if u can't figure out number 9 in 2 seconds u are stupid and shouldn't even bother going to school because ur probably going to be a garbage man or something along those lines.
    11. My battery is dying
    12. I have friends
    13. I have family
    14. I have a brother but no sisters.
    15. I repeat "no sisters"
    16. Kristen is a stupid name. Comment if u agree. Then we can form a club and hurt the kristens.
    17. I say stupid things at times
    18. My favorite number is this.
    19. 18 won me a seat in the bean bag chair in 4th grade and has been my fav number since.
    20. This light is hurting my eyes.
    21. It burns
    22. I use an alarm clock to wake up for school. I set it a half earlier so that for ex if it were 600 then on the clock would be 530 to trick me to fet up earlier.
    23. Number 22 doesn't work.
    24. I set it also for 530 then let it go off then 600 then let it go off then 630. Then I wake up. My pretend sister doesn't like it.
    25. Numbers 22-24 are about my alarm clock
    26. And 25 too
    27. and 26
    28. And 27
    29. 28 too
    30. Yep and 30
    31. Do u remember what numbers 26-30 were about. If not ill remind u with number 25
    32. If u are reading this u are stupid.
    33. My arms hurt. Not my fingers though.strange
    34. It is 140am
    35. Or is it?
    36. I have a rabbit named oreo.
    37. I have a tv and it fell.
    38. I broke my camcorder
    39.I broke my lamp
    40. My pretend sis broke my lava lamp.bitch.
    41. I have a lot of pictures stuck to my wall over my bed.
    42. I have a plastic dartboard.
    43. I have a big monkey thing but my rabbit chewed off his nostrils. Stupid bunny.no food for 2 days.
    44. I have high ceilings and a swimming pool
    45. I don't like this place
    46. I spill an average of 3 drinks on my rug a day. Its not tan anymore.
    47. Ok maybe a little tan.
    48. I have a cool stereo system.
    49. I do not like happy bunny.
    50. I laugh at shoes. Only one can say it
    51.I like to read- not history books or anything boring.
    52.I went from a laying down position to a sitting position- indian style
    53. 52 was caused by me realizing I am more than halfway done but still have a long way to go
    54. I need a new lamp.
    55. I have stupid phases
    56.I have a stupid bed next to my own that has flowers on it. Tsk tsk.
    57. I see elmo.
    58. Its dark and quiet exept for the annoying light in my eyes and the clicking of the letters to make this.
    59. I am going to die around 92. But if I get cancer I'm gonna go with 64.
    60. I have a really big window.
    61. I'm going to college.
    62. My mom bought me 4 things of glue but only 2 notebooks. Tsk tsk.
    63. I'm going to lay down.
    64. I am laying down.
    65. I'm about to write number 66
    66. I told u
    67. I am wearing pants and a shirt.
    68. No socks
    69. No bra (a must)
    70. When I wrote (a must) it wasn't about the bra thing
    71. Do not laugh
    72. This would suck if the battery ran out right now.
    73. This is a race against time
    74. I bought a cd
    75. I have a dog
    76. I kill plants
    77. I tied to grow flowers on my window sill but after a summer of watering I left for a week and my stepdad didn't water them and they died
    78. That was last year.
    79. I still have the pots and they still have dirt in them. The same dirt.
    80. Its in my clost somewhere. I don't keep my clothes in my closet only coats. I have white walls.
    81. Damn I have white walls was supposed to be number 81
    82. O shizzle I have no power I must abort and finish this later. I am saving.
    Monday, August 23rd, 2004
    4:38 am
    lmfao
    Much thanks to ben levesque who has made my livejournal thingy coooool just like he said he would. Ben I love u! lmfao. God kid ur great.

    Current Mood: pleased
    Wednesday, August 18th, 2004
    2:12 pm
    subject
    God I don't like people.

    Ur mother came up to me.she wanted answers she should know, only she should know.it wasn't easy to deal with the tears that rolled down her face. I had no answers cause I didn't even know u.but these words they can't replace,the life u,the life u waste.how could u paint this picture?was life as bad as it should seem that there were no options for u? I can't explain how I feel. I've been there many times before.I've tasted the cold steel of my life crashing down before me but these words they can't replace, the life u, the life u waste- did daddy not love u? Or did he love u just too much?did he control u? Did he live through u at ur cost? Did he leave no question for u to answer on ur own? Well fuck them, and fuck her, and fuck him, and fuck u for not having the strength in ur heart to pull through. I've had doubts,I have failed,I've fucked up,I've had plans,doesn't mean I should take my life with my own hands but these words don't replace the life u waste, the life u waste.

    Stained "waste"

    How is it a person can make u happy then make u feel like shit. Bastards.o well.just sort of a baddish day.but ill be happy again soon.always tomorrow thank god.
    Friday, March 5th, 2004
    4:18 pm
    ...
    All right I think I'm through with this livejournal stuff. I might go on occasionally but I think it's boring and there's almost no point to it. I might change my mind but in the meantime I'm good. See I don't even know who or what I'm talking to or why I'm even talking. Ok bye.

    okey dokey yellow folky<-that's cool
    Sunday, February 29th, 2004
    7:05 pm
    ....
    I haven't wrote in this thing in a while cause i just got my computer going since i moved. A decent amount has happened since my last entry. You know when i was supposed to get surgery on wed? Never happened. I went to the doctor's office and he said i had options. Moron. I don't care what my options are. He said i shouldn't get surgery cause there would be a scar. oooh i've never gotten one of those before. Oh well. I think i'll try to whack my wrist on something. That was one of his "options". Ok friday was wierd. especially last block man. Amanda 2 is really grabby.okay i don't feel like typing anymore.
    Monday, February 9th, 2004
    6:40 pm
    Ugh...
    Oh so much work. I'm going to be exhausted this whole week. I have a lot of homework this week and lots of tests and I have to move all my crap into the new apartment. Hell, I don't even have enough time to tell you about my day. I can't wait until vacation then there will be time to relax. I'm just going to try to get everything done and over with. Well cya later.
    Thursday, February 5th, 2004
    7:15 pm
    people these days...
    Well yeasterday we had another code yellow. It wasn't as exciting as it was the first time I'll admit. Oh well. Anyway I had to walk home yesterday- well partly until my cousin saw me and asked if we wanted a ride. But my mom didn't know this. If she did she'd think justin was too young to drive and kill us. Personally i don't care. She's a jerk. She made us walk yesterday and today for no apparent reason. Oh no wait. Cause she was too lazy. Most mothers are at least a little kind to their children. But no not her. She puts herself before her kids. It's worse because she's deaf. God they are loud. And it sucks cause she went to really crappy schools so if i said something like compassion she'd be like what's that mean? I get frustrated. If you're in an argument you can't talk to her cause she'll turn her head all the time and just keep talking because she's always right. But she can be cool once and a while. She has her moments. All right enough of that.

    Ok, today. We had another drill thing. Will those people quit with the bombs? I'm not scared or anything. I think it's nice to have something cool happen-not necessarily the scool blow up but i think you know what i mean. And if you don't then oh well. Just don't sit there and ponder about whether or not i'm a horrible person. I'll save you some trouble and tell you outright. I'm not. At least I don't think I am. Now kristen's ex? that's a different story. I knew he was vile, stupid and queer. I could see right through that shortness. Little bastard. I think i'm going to harass him online when he comes on. It'll be fun. Ok i'm tired of typing. I'll be writing in you later.
    Tuesday, February 3rd, 2004
    7:28 pm
    continued...
    so where was I? Ah yes. 2nd block we did a Mcas prep packet all block. It was easy but I don't like writing too much. i guess i get lazy. sometimes I get inspired to do things then give up or forget about it because it gets too boring. Several times i attempted to write books but I got bored and i read it over and over again and decided it was stupid. Well anyway 3rd block was boring. fourth block is probably the highlight of my day because i know alot more people in there then i do in my other classes. In most of my other classes there are alot of people not worth talking to because they have little stuck up grouped snobs. oh well. I don't like being ignored. It hurts my feelings. nah just joking but it gets me a little anooyed at times depending on the person. I like people alot more if they talk to me.
    Well...Hmmmm what else? Well I guess i was a little distracted today especially after last block. I was looking at practically everything except at the people who were talking to me.
    Well i think I'm gonna go now. I'm gonna take a shower.Hmmm maybe I should take a bath instead. I haven't in so long. No maybe not. It's kind of a waste of time. I feel like life is going by too fast. I know it's silly to say because it's not like i'm 40 or something but I don't want to grow up (i'm a toys r us kid). People say that they want to be 21 or so but i think that's too old. Maybe i'm just wierd. Oh well. Have any comments then type em up and tell me. I'm done here. For now.
    6:38 pm
    Hhmmmm...
    Today was decent. 1st block was lonely. Not many people are in there that i know. It's a small class with a wierd teacher. Mr. Landoch. He always mentions elephants having seizures. He thinks it's hilarious. It kinda is once you think about it. All right I'll tell you about the rest of my day in a half an hour or so. ciao.
    Saturday, January 31st, 2004
    7:36 pm
    ...
    how can you see into my eyes like open doors
    leading you down into my core
    where i've become so numb
    without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
    until you find it there and lead it back home
    wake me up inside
    wake me up inside
    call my name and save me from the dark
    bid my blood to run
    before i come undone
    save me from the nothing i've become

    now that i know what i'm without
    you can't just leave me
    breathe into me and make me real
    bring me to life

    wake me up inside
    wake me up inside
    call my name and save me from the dark
    bid my blood to run
    before i come undone
    save me from the nothing i've become
    bring me to life

    frozen inside without your touch
    without your love darling
    only you are the life among the dead

    all this time i can't believe i couldn't see
    kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
    i've been sleeping a thousand years it seems
    got to open my eyes to everything
    without a thought without a voice without a soul
    don't let me die here
    there must be something more
    bring me to life

    -Evanescence
    Thursday, January 29th, 2004
    7:38 pm
    .........i don't Know
    I'm going to move into a different apartment in my building soon. It's slightly bigger than the one I'm in now and a whole lot cleaner. We've lived in the same apt. for 8 years and my carpet is so stained it's rainbow colors when it's supposed to be tan. I like the view better from here though. It's really nice cause it's on the 4th floor. You can see the taunton river and farther then that even. Oh well.
    On a different note i'm going to be getting surgery on my wrist on feb. 25 at 9:15. I'd rather go after school because i don't want to miss any school. I have this bump on my wrist because i used to work out i guess. At least that's what the doctors tell me. But i'm glad I'm getting it removed. I've had it for a year and it annoys the crap out of me. Sometimes it shrinks or swells or is painful so i have to ice it down every night. Oh well. Other than that i guess life is good. I don't think i have that many problems and i'm not about to list them. byez
    Wednesday, January 28th, 2004
    6:25 pm
    la la
    Yesterday i got into a water fight with my step-dad. It was awesome. As he was filling the water gun up i filled glasses with water and rigged the whole place. So when he came out and started squirtin me i kept running throught the house throwing glasses of water at him. It was cool. Kristen decided to help when he barracaded me in the living room and was squirtin the crap out of me. Since i had no more glasses of water she threw a cup of water at him which gave me the chance to escape. Today sucked though. It was awesome to have a snow day but my mom made me clean<-not cool
    Thursday, January 22nd, 2004
    7:04 pm
    Ahh memories...
    Well first my sister and I slept over my cousin Jessica's house and we did the chicken dance in her driveway while waiting for my dad to bring some munchies over. It was awesome. We were running around dancing on the car...but then this guy came by and asked if we needed a ride. I was like what did he say? and my cousin was like i don't know. Then i said it again and she said the same thing again. We did that like 3 times then we told him to go away. Truly a wierd experience. Then she slept over our house and we played cards alot and bet with candy. Then we played a game and decided it was stupid so we made up our own rules. But it was stupid anyway. We played monopoly then we played chess. I played against Jessica and I won 3 times and she won once. We stopped playing because after the 4th game she gave up when i took her queen but then i got mad because she wouldn't admit that i had won. Damn her. After that no one would play with me so we played some video games then made a movie. It was the stupidest movie we ever made. I played an old lady and Jessica played death and Kristen was cameraman. We were planning to have some dialogue but it ended up being matrixy. Finally at the end we decided talking but it was still stupid. Stupid yet fun. The best video we made was when Jessica was a phsycopath murderer while Kristen was a dead person. It was cool. Then we played truth or dare. Jessica and Kristen ate dog biscuits and I ate a cat furball treatment pill. I popped it like a pill. It was disgusting. Good times, good times.
    Wednesday, January 21st, 2004
    7:40 pm
    Yay!
    I have lots of catching up to a-do. First off for those who want to know about my life...I'll tell you. Well it all started when i was born. But right after my sister Kristen came. That's when all hell broke loose. No i'm just kidding. No it's probably the antithesis(<-ooh big word!) of that. I'm sorry to say but i was the bad child. Yes I was the one who acted up in restaurants and pushed my sister out the window when we were three. Yes i was the kind of child that you only heard about or saw in movies. But i have no regrets. Of course I've calmed down quite a bit in the last 2 years. I suppose that's what you're supposed to do. Now all I do is space out and say stupid things at times. Oh well. Anyway, I have a dad but i only see him on saturdays. I live with my mom and stepdad<-god help me. Ok back to the present. Or close to it. I was really happy last week because my classmates and I had to compete against eachother on a test and whoever wrote the most facts got an A++. And guess who got it? Yes, the one and only. Mwha. I wrote 112 facts. I felt really smart especially since it was an honors class. Oh yeah. Happy Happy Joy Joy. Ok anyway finals are coming up. I'm not to happy with that. My mom made me study for hours. I got so bored I started to read the dictionary. Actually i find myself doing that alot lately. I read like 30 pages of a physics book and to tell you the truth i thought it was interesting execpt when they mentioned equations.
    Ok on a different note I've come to find that I don't think I like people much. Sometimes i find that i don't like myself at times. Ok i think i'm done here. I'll get back to you. Okey dokey.

    Current Mood: chipper
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